This is a lot to put on a girl. I have to pull my SAT score up higher so i can lower the cost of a college. I have to get higher grades and take more AP classes, so i can seem like i am an overachiever. I have to watch my grades and work harder than before. The academics usually come easy for me though. I don't get C's and i usually only get A's and B's. This is also because of the pressure my parents put on me. They get me tutors before they even tell me. In a way they control so much of my life and sometimes it sucks.
These pressures to get good grades on hanging on one arm and on the other is my social life. Or as one can say my nonexistent. I used to have a good social life when i was with my longterm boyfriend, who just randomly broke up with me because he wants to be a kid again. And i also have my best friend. But at school, i am seen as someone else. People just dont seem to like me. I am quiet around people who dont seem to even give me the chance to speak. For me my highest social life was in my Freshmen and Sophomore year, but friends move on to other people and i just move to be by myself. This is hard on a person, when it feels like i have nothing.
So i have to rely on myself. This is many ways has been negative, but also positive. I have grown as a stronger and more independent woman. I focus on my studies and the ones i believe should really be in my life. In a way right now i feel as adult as possible, i feel i can just skip this last year of high school and just go into the world alone, or almost alone. The experiences I have had, good and bad, have helped me realize i can be the one who can write those college essays and soon.
