I just don't understand

Sometimes i feel i really do not understand the world and the people that live here.

I'm not talking about anything too specific.

Let me jump to one point:

College:

Why do i have to get perfect grades and have all the extracurricular to get in some good school. In the end don't you get the same education from one college to the next. I doubt there is really some big difference between College A and College B.

Then there is this essay i have to write. For me, i feel the essay writing is pretty simple. I enjoy some parts of it actually. But i do not like how i basically have to brag in the essay on how im so special more than other people. And i have to brag to get into the college i want to get into. It is just one of those things. I dont like those questions like Why should you come to our school? How should i know this? I might not be as good as Jenny or Ben. But I am just me. I sometimes dont even understand myself. I dont even understand the world at times either. How should i write something that brags about myself and how i should get this, this and this. But all i really want is something very simple.

Isnt that true for everyone. You dont actually need anything except for the basic necessities.