1. College
Decision time will be soon. And i just don't know. Should I go to Sonoma State or St. Marys? Should i leave home or stay here. The thing is I have a boyfriend here. And it would be best for our relationship if I stayed here. But if we break up, what if that is something I regretted. What if I changed colleges for a guy? I will be hearing from UCs soon, but that has no effect in my decision making skills. Right now its down to Sonoma, St. Marys, and UOP. But what to chose. What would be best for me?
2. Career
I have sort of made the decision that I want to be an elementary school teacher. But what if it doesn't work out? What if i become a burn out? What if it is not really for me and I was just lying to myself saying I like it? There is so much pressure on me because of this. I am interning for elementary school teacher aides. I put in my major to the schools as elementary education. Those three colleges above are the schools that have the best elementary education programs. But what if that is not right for me?
3. This Whole Social Life thing
Truthfully, I don't really have just friends i hang out with. I am my boyfriend and my family. Once in a while I have one or two friends to hang out with. But thats it. Usually I am just fine about this. But with recent pressures, i need someone to talk to. A girl, preferably. Yes i know i can just go to my bf, or my family, but i need someone else who is there. I want a girl's night out. The movies. Eating ice cream. Just girl talk. You know? Maybe in college. Says my family. Since I will experience so much more and meet so many new and interesting and not interesting people. This is just the major thing for me. I want a girl that i can talk to, hang out with and do all that girly stuff. Humans are formed to crave this kind of thing. Your brain is hotwired to want it. And when you don't have it, usually there is a decrease in confidence, and an increase in your stress levels (The Female Brain
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2 comments:
Having been there and done that, while you're still young do what's best for you. For college, look closely at the program that will serve your future best. Which one has the best program and classes available for what you need? Don't make the mistake of picking what's best for someone else. It's about you this time. Yes, it may strain your relationship. Ultimately however, how he reacts to it will tell you how well you would have been able to depend on him in the future.
Career wise, it's always wise to have a backup. So, focus your college degree on your teaching, but perhaps add in a secondary one for something else that really interests you. My grandmother called it having a marketable skill. However, nothing says you can't just go back to school at a later time for a career change. People do that all the time.
Your family is right about college though. Once you get there, things change. You'll meet new people and have plenty more opportunities to get out there and socialize. So once you get to college, consider joining in some of the social activities (a club for example). If you hide in the corner, don't be surprised if people don't notice you (though for someone like me it's a perfect place to be!).
Good luck in your future!
Rhonda (saifai)
The good news is no matter what path you choose you will find a way to make it work and be happy. There will be problems and challenges no matter what path you chose. That isn't something that can be prevented. So take the high road. Take the road that has the chances of giving you the best kind of life in the future. Deep down you know the answer. This bf if he is worthy of someone as wonderful as you, he will support the high road even if that means hardly seeing him.
I used to worry like you. Over think my decisions. I passed many opportunities because I didn't want to make the wrong choice. What I can tell you from what I have learned is not making a choice because you are afraid is ALWAYS the wrong choice. The greatest learning lesson in life is to learn to always challenge and move past your fears. Change is supposed to be uncomfortable. The things that are best for us are often the most difficult things to do. The things that we resist the most are the very things that we need. Allow yourself to sit in silence and really listen to yourself. The path that seems the easiest option, the least difficult to fit into your life, the most sensible option....its probably you wanting to stay in a comfort zone where you will be safe and things will continue to make sense. The other option you probably deep down know would lead you to the life that you truly want but are afraid to try for. Perhaps that choice will lead to challenges or seems impossible to execute. That is the choice that you need to make happen. That choice will show you that you can conquer that which scares you. It will show you that if you can do 'that' you can do anything. And Everyone needs a little bit of that feeling in their life.
'Behold the turtle. He only makes progress when he sticks his neck out.'~James Bryant Conant
I wish you happiness no matter what you choose.
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