a little high

Shopping
when i buy something new i get a little high
i have something i look pretty in
i have something that people be like "oh she looks good"
clothing is my confident boost.
if someone is like "that dress is hot"
i will wear it again and again
i will wear it out
as long as i have that feeling that i am wanted
that what i wear matters in some way
that i can change for the better what people think of me

Sure this mentality is not good when one is depressed
A year ago, i had this little hobby:
I would buy things on ebay. I would never go past 5 dollars unless it was something important. Or at least if i thought was.
I bought in excess, lots of useless bracelets, necklaces and rings
i even bought a light company once, thinking i was just buying a light
Still i love going into a store and finding that cute little dress that i look amazing in.
Those boots that give my legs a hotter shape
that shirt that makes my cleavage look good
those jeans that make my ass look hotter than usual